Channing Tatum………… ♥

Enough about that -.- Sorry. I just finished watching She’s The Man and ughhhh, it was really hard not to drool. He’s awesome with every girl that is in his movie. And he, can, melt, me, simply, by, talking – yeah, talking is one of the ways you melt a person but okay..

* moving on because this is getting weird *

Sometimes, it feels weird when I suddenly can’t stop eating my own macarons. I don’t even know why I eat them, I just can’t stop. I just feel like eating macarons. My own. But that weird feeling is something I can’t get rid of and I also don’t know how to stop babbling

Telekom has finally reconnected the telephone/internet line at my new house, which is something I am super grateful for. So I can finally start on my assignment, read emails properly and you know? Be normal again. What pisses me off is the fact that it took one good scolding to actually get them to start working. Waste of credit. Waste of time. Waste of energy. But okay, thanks for the internet anyway.

SO! Yeah, so last night we had a sleepover. We, as in my friends and I. It was such an awesome night. Can’t remember the last time I laughed so much (yea right.. I can but yea okay), but I was literally rolling on the floor laughing my back off! Missed them so much and I truly wish we could have sleepovers more often but what to do, we rarely have the same holidays

It’ll be our friendship’s “8th anniversary” this year. 2 more years to make it 10 years. Sigh. How time flies. The first time we met, we were still ‘babies’ -.-

So, here’s to a great friendship, here’s to the ups and downs, and here’s to hoping it’ll last for as long as we live! :’)

I miss them already! Sobs.

And I’m craving for Garrett’s popocorn popcorn even though I’m not a big fan of popcorn. I can’t blame it on PMS anymore. WHY :’|

I really want to lose weight. But I’m not sure that is going to happen anytime soon. Sigh. Why is it so hard to lose weight! WHY.

I don’t think I’m writing the things I really want to write. No. I’m not thinking straight. It’s either because I’m sleepy (slept at 3:30pm, woke up at 8am) or because I miss you.

I don’t know.

Til’ next time.

eh (?)

I mean, they cut our line pretty fast, punctual, no problem but putting it back takes ages. Which is annoying of course but okay.

Anyway, I finally have a wardrobe! So happy. Well, it’s not exactly a wardrobe, hah! But I could hang clothes and all still, and I feel like my room is a fashion show backstage thing, so I guess that’s good? We went shopping at Ikea last night and we got a dining table, 2 study tables, my “wardrobe”, my shelf-like thing, all at a super cheap price. So Ikea is helpful after all if you really learn how to search for a bargain.

I’m still unpacking. I really had no idea that there are so many things kept in my previous room. Now that I’m in a much smaller room, I no longer know how to store them :’|

What else?

Okay. I really am in my own world right now. Talking like my life is the best thing in the universe. Hm.

I guess I’m just happy at the moment. Somehow, I feel like things will work out after all. I don’t know. I just have a good feeling about everything

Hopefully my feeling’s right.

I guess that’s all for now.

Hopefully internet will come back soon :’(

I will be back soon.

Oh, and I’m finally growing up. Yeay me.

It’s awesome, I tell you. Just, simply, awesome. I went crazy for all the notebooks they have and luckily, most of the notebooks are not overpriced, so that was really a surprise for me. They’re even having a promotion which allows you to buy 3 notebooks (big ones) at the price of only RM30. BARGAIN.

Elmi and I wanted to buy those 3 for RM30 notebooks but we opted for their “campus notebooks” instead which are sold at RM45 for 2. The notebook has files attached to it as well, and the design of each notebook is so unique, I feel like crying just talking about it

And like I have mentioned several times before, I don’t mind splurging on notebooks and diaries and journals. I can easily splurge on these more than I’m willing to spend on clothes somehow. Weird..!

I even found a calendar. Yeah. I have been searching for a decent calendar and guess what? I got one at Typo for only RM3. Jealous yet? Ha-ha. Nah, yeah, I really do want a calendar. Now if only I could find a clock – the kind that you put on your table, yes, I am looking for a clock. A nice looking clock with a nice decent price.

Sigh. I so want to go back to Pavilion next week. I want those 3 for RM30 notebooks. And perhaps waste some money (which I don’t have) on things I don’t need just because it’ll give such euphoric feeling.

Here’s one picture I got from someone’s blog. Click on the photo to go to the person’s blog.

Photo from: The Childlike Empress

Ahhh, just seeing the picture makes me want to spend the night there :’)

I really, really love notebooks. I just love them. LOVE them! Anything I can write in. I love them. For last year, I had 4 notebooks just for one semester. Aweeeesome me -.-

So, yes, that’s it about Typo.

Do I have anything else to write? Nothing much really. I’m just worried I might not have internet connection for a while when I move to the other house. My mum still has not settled things with Telekom about moving and all. I have lots of assignments that I need to start working on, and I can hardly do that without internet. Sigh.

Nevermind. We’ll just hope for the best. Much smaller room. Now I’m scared. But shut up Farhanah, at least you have a home, be grateful for that.

Have a nice weekend (again). Til’ next time.

I don’t have perfect grammar and my vocabulary IS lower than my 9 year old sister. I don’t know weird extravagant words in English. And I Google silly grammar guides all the time. So, please forgive my rude tweets regarding grammatical errors which I have posted about an hour ago. It’s just that, when one is rude to you, you can’t help but to be rude as well – and yes, I know I should have been patient but I love English despite not being perfect in it, so I really, really have low tolerance level towards people who purposely don’t want to improve their English when it’s clear that the mistakes they are doing can be spotted even by, again, my 9 year old sister

Fuh. Rant about grammar is over now. We can safely move on.

I was this close to buying food coloring powder from Amazon last night but I stopped myself when I saw I’d be spending a whopping $70.99 just for that. Yeah, convert that to Ringgit Malaysia. I think I much rather just ask someone abroad to buy them for me when they come back to Malaysia. I guess for now, I will have to bear with “Malaysian coloring powder”.

But have no fear, I have plans of going to Singapore during my semester break in July. With my best girlfriend ever, with my own money, with my own effort ♥ And from Kitchen Guardian’s post, I’ve found out about some interesting stores selling baking supplies. Ahhh, even by just reading her post, I already know it would be heaven for me as well :’)

Can’t remember much about my last trip to Singapore in 2006. YEAH. Years and years since I last set foot there. All I remember is the shopping we did and me not finding even one perfect top to bring home. Sad. But we bought a lot sunglasses there for some reasons -.-

OH. But I remember the food. Oh yes. I remember the magnificent tauhu bakar – the time when I first fell in love with tauhu bakar, aha. Sigh. Can’t wait to go back there again and this time, adding Universal Studios to the list. And it’ll be my first ‘out of country’ trip with friends *motivation to work harder on my business*

Anyway, he called me for the first time from Germany this morning, at 5:49am. I am super grateful I woke up to the sound of my phone or else I would have died out of regret. I’m just sad I was still in my ‘sleeping mode’ so I can’t remember much about what I really said but it was such a relief to hear his voice after about 6 days

And as you can see, my mood has changed so much after finally hearing something from him. My Twitter picture is even the picture I took with him at the airport just before he left. Sigh. Of course, I won’t lie and say I’m not still sad. I am. And yessss, I miss him like crazy but you know? Life goes on. I’m just glad he called. That’s all

ahh, yes, slap me |:

Oh and since we’re here, why don’t you take a look at my tuxedo cat;

sheesh. arrogant cat, no?

But I swear Ducky likes to cuddle all, the, time. Silly cat, acting like a baby. But I love him to death. Sigh ♥

Okay, I guess that’s enough for now. Will be moving to our “new house” early next week. I’ve went to the house, finally, and I must say, I’m not too disappointed. A bit excited actually to start a new chapter in life. I’m used to moving anyway, so I guess I’ll adapt to this new house. Yes, the room is 10x smaller than my room right now but somehow, just somehow, I feel excited. We’ll see (:

Have a good weekend, since it’s Friday tomorrow. Toodles.

Didn’t think Bruno Mars’ Long Distance song would mean this much to me :’|

And somehow, I want to post some pictures of my birthday last month. Simply because I still can’t accept the fact that I am turning 21 this year. Whoa. The age when my mum got married. Scary -.-

Anyway…. Yeah, despite our financial situation, my mum actually saved some money to treat me lunch at Bubba Gump on my birthday. It was really nice but like I mentioned in one of my posts, I had to stand on the freaking chair and “shake my booty” – Bubba Gump’s birthday tradition. Sigh. But it was less humiliating because I managed to somewhat “shake my booty”, the guy, who apparently was celebrating his birthday as well, who sat next to us, wasn’t even moving. He looked like a stone. Poor, poor guy. Having a bunch of guys singing and asking him to “shake his booty”. Poor guy

I can’t really remember what I ordered but it had a lot of shrimps. Mum ordered Hush Pups (or whatever the name is) which is my personal favorite whenever I go to Bubba Gump. It was a really nice lunch, I was so full by the time we left.

please don't order this unless you're in a group of at least 4 people.

That’s my “birthday cake”. Alabama Mud Pie, the waiter recommended this to us and little did we know that it would be such a torture to finish everything up with only 3 of us (2 adults & 1 child). So.. yeah. But I think it’s not that worth it. It’s just a big chunk of ice cream with whipped cream and all. You can make it yourself for a much cheaper price

Whatever it is, I ♥ my mum for the treat. It was so generous of her.

Anyhoo, I found this really cool website which I’m not sharing -.-

And… I can’t wait to go to Pavilion end of this week as I’m dying to set foot in this store called Typo. I’ve read online that they sell some really cool stuff, so I’m hoping to splurge on something there. I’ve already done some online shopping therapy earlier today, so… time for some real shopping ♥

I wonder if I should splurge on a new purse. Mum told me to wait for another few months but you know? Yeah. I don’t know.

I love my Blackberry by the way, no matter how screwed up it is. But I still want the Samsung Galaxy R. And I’m really trying not to buy it with my own money. So… We’ll see.

I’m also wondering if I should splurge on an Instax. It will take about 30% of my earnings last semester break, and that’s a lot to me, so I really wonder if it’s worth it.

Anyway, I’m taking a subject called Child & Play this semester. Hoping for it to be a really good subject. Maybe I’m really destined to work with children after all? Maybe. Who knows.

Results will be out tomorrow. Something I certainly don’t look forward to. But I will talk about that some other day.

I guess for now, that’s all I have to say.

Oh, except for one more thing, whoever said chocolate cures a broken heart is a big fat liar. Sheesh.

10,000 kilometers away.

But it’ll be alright. This time, I have more faith than I have ever had before.

Though it’s going to hard, it’s going to be okay. Just like he promised.

Exactly just like he promised ♥

Went out with the family just now and I was checking out phones because yes, my Bold 2 is going more and more cuckoo everyday. It gets hot all of the sudden, it lags, it hangs, I need to do battery pull almost every day now. But I still love it to pieces somehow, so you can call it a love hate relationship.

I was a bit surprised to see the Bold 5 just now. Man, it’s much more pretty than the bulky Bold 4. And cheaper too, which of course makes it a whole lot better than Bold 4. It really is a nice phone but you see, I get more and more tempted with touchscreen phones nowadays because of the colors.

I hate Blackberry’s camera as well, so I’m not sure by buying a much newer Blackberry would solve the problem or not as I don’t find the screen colors as attractive as HTC or Samsung and what not, be it the old Blackberry or the new ones. Oh and by the way, I have lost interest in iPhone-s. Another thing that I find to be inappropriately expensive.

What really caught my attention just now was the Samsung Galaxy R. It’s much cheaper than the supposedly impressive Samsung Galaxy S II but it doesn’t differ much in functions. Sure, the camera has 3 less megapixels than the Galaxy S II but seriously? My camera already has about 10-12 megapixels, so why do I need my phone to have an impressive camera anyway?

But really, the difference in price is massive so I’m really, really, REALLY aiming for this Samsung Galaxy R. One problem though – I want to maintain my Bold 2. Why? Because BIS plan is one hell of a good plan. I’m not willing to let that go. I’m a social network junkie. I want to be able to connect to the internet even in my car (especially when I get stuck in a traffic jam) BUT I’m not going to pay for some expensive data plan just for that.

Without trading in my current phone, I’ll have to pay the full price of the Samsung Galaxy R, which will cost me about RM400+. Wonder if it’s worth it. I don’t know. Which is why I need more time to think. I might get the phone this month or next month but I’m buying it, with or without my own money. I hope I won’t need to use my own money. But then again, I only need about RM300-400 more anyway (just to be safe), which I’m sure I’m going to earn at least by the end of the month!

Oh yeaaaah! Finally something to look forward to this year.

Oh well. This has been one boring post. But I need to let it out in order to think more clearly and rationally.

Until then.

Maybe it’s the fact that 2011 hasn’t exactly been a wonderful spectacular year for me. Sure, I had my share of laughter, joy, happiness, rainbow, unicorns and what not but it hasn’t exactly a year I would want to have again for 2012. Relationship wise, perhaps. But other than that, no thank you.

Tell me, how can I not be bitter when everything about the new year is reminding me of the things I’m going to lose?

We’re moving to a different house. I don’t really care about moving to a smaller house or whatever but this house holds so many sentimental values to me and we all know that sentimental values can’t be bought, for like, ever. I’m going to miss my room. I’m going to miss my kitchen. The swimming pool. Let’s just say everything about it, not because it’s a bigger room or what but simply because there are just too many memories kept in each place of this house.

Then, of course, the thing I’ve been babbling non-stop about. Him. He’s going abroad in just the first week of 2012 which just plain sucks, okay? End of story.

Financial problems, yeah, God knows when that’s ever going to end.

My dream to study abroad. Refer to problem one. If I don’t do the 2+1 program, then… yeah, who knows when I’ll ever get the chance to study abroad anymore.

Results are coming out on the 10th of January. Another thing I definitely don’t look forward to.

So, basically, I don’t have anything to look forward to next year. Nothing at all. At least not that I know of for now.

Yes, there are so many people who are less fortunate than me. Yes, I sound like an ungrateful brat. Yes, I know. But it doesn’t mean I’m not hurting somewhere. Okay?

I want to be the usual optimistic me. But I have my own ups and downs. I really hate it when everyone expects me to be all sunshie cheerful every single minute. Come on. I have my bad moments. Can I at least savor every minute of it. The faster I wallow in self pity, the faster I’ll be able to get my optimism back. I hope

So, here I am, 31st December 2011, 10:49pm, in my pink bedroom, taking a glance at the things I’m going to lose, wishing everyone a very merry Happy New Year….!

“Woohoo”