He’s Funny

My dad has a Facebook. I am not too excited about that!! He just made it last night. But he shares the account with his friend. Probably just too bored from staying in Belgium for almost 1 month already. He posted a lot of videos of him there and what’s even worse? The Facebook account is under the name “Senyum Sokmo” which means “Smile Always” in Kelantanese accent. Like, what!? Hahahaha. Whatever. His friend came up with the idea and all.

Anyway, I added him last night (which is a big mistake!!) and he started reading the things on my profile, look through my pictures and all that. And he asked me about why I was talking gay stuffs with my friends. I burst into laughters at that exact time!! I was like, Dad, please, I was just joking around! You know me, I’m your silly little girl

Well, I’m grateful because I didn’t really post any rude or ridiculous pictures or make stupid perverted quizzes. Haha. Or else, I would have been a dead meat last night!

In case you just want to know, my dad is a little bit over-protective of me. He’s like trying to keep me in his silly little bubble FOREVER! Haha But hey, I am not joking okay? AND, he’s most protective when it comes to boys. LOL. I remember him getting all panic when he found out I was talking on the phone with my then best guy friend when I was in Form 1. He was asking my mom all sorts of questions and why is this guy calling me and whatever. Haha, that was seriously funny.

My mom and I always like to tease him about me getting married and getting children. He would freak out the moost when he hears that, no kidding!! Usually, when he’s talking about my future, he would go on like this:

Him: I don’t want you out from the house that early because once you live outside, that’s it. The end of your living-at-home time. Later on, you will get a job, settle down and… And.. Ha, I don’t want to go there (he’s actually thinking about me getting married! Hahahaha )

He avoids that topic every time!!! Then, my mom would tease him, telling him that she has planned how my wedding is going to be and all and you can actually see his face changing! Probably even him turning all white and pale! Hahhh, I just love to freak my dad out Like father, like daughter. He likes to play silly jokes on us as well, okay!

If only he knew just how I am not so angelic after all, he would kill me!!!!! Teehee

Whatever it is, I am trying my best to be on my good behaviour (liar liar pants on fire) and about the going to club thingie, I have long forgotten about that Thank God. I don’t even want to go to one anymore, but that doesn’t change the fact that I like dancing! Okay?

And I am also trying to be better. I don’t know in terms of what, but I do know that I just want my parents to be happy, that’s all

Though there are some things I just can’t resist That, I don’t know!!

Anyway, today is a much better day. I went to sleep smiling last night. Someone did save me after all. In the morning, I woke up, being annoyed by my little brother. But now, I feel kind of guilty for snapping at him. Hmmm, probably would apologize later on Then, after a series of going to sleep, waking up again, going to sleep, I finally woke up to a phone call and things just got better from that

Psychology is fun. I need to keep telling myself that because IT IS FUN! I am not being sarcastic okay? I am just worried that my TER won’t be high enough to meet the entry requirement for the B Sc (Hons) in Psychology. I just need to pray that my TER would be okay Though I am not really that confident about it despite the not THAT bad TER I have gotten before this. I am just scared.

Oh well, I need to keep studying. It’s confirmed, I am not going to Awards Night. Too bad, really. I have been looking forward to it. What to do, I can’t just say no to the ticket that has been bought, right? Hmmm

I’m going to stop now. Time to study, study, study

Wish me luck, people.

xoxo, Fanah.

Forgive Me

I’m listening to one of my favourite sad sappy songs. It’s a really sad song but I’m not sharing the title with anyone because it’s not like anyone would want to know.

I am currently in my bad mood again. Or rather, my sad mood. All I feel like doing is cry. And I am. And I just can’t seem to tell this to anyone except for to blog about it here.

Not going to tell the whole story but all I am saying is, I am disappointed, frustrated, hurt, etc. Mainly hurt.

I hate this situation. I just want everything to be normal again. That’s all.

I want you to be here, more than anything but at the same time, I want to get away from you. I don’t know what I want.

Maybe I’ll just cry first, and think later.

xoxo, Fanah.

Broken Rules

Today, nothing much happened, making me feel as if it is going to take me a huge effort to even type anything for the blog. But of course, being me, I just have to do so, right? Blog-addict. That’s what I am. Blogging, reading blogs are what I do best.

As a blog reader, I find it highly annoying to see people who just don’t care to take care of their blogs. I mean, the layout doesn’t seem right, the font is just wrong, the annoying music which sometimes force me to listen to 2 songs at the same time. We get it. You love music, but don’t you think that it is too much to put 2 songs on your page, playing at the same freaking time? And if you just have to put a song profile, can you choose something that is soothing, that is calming instead of some purely rock music. It’s okay if you put it on your Myspace profile, but on your blog?! To me, that is a freaking no no. People READ your blog. They need to concentrate, word by word. Do you think it is fun doing some reading with a black metal song as the background? No, it ain’t fun, mate. No way.

But, that’s the reason they created the PAUSE button. I can always pause the song, or even stop it anytime I want, but everytime I turn to the new page of your blog, I would have to press PAUSE again. Which is rather troublesome for me. It’s super annoying. If it’s a song I like, I don’t really mind but it’s the disturbing songs I hate

But then again, it’s YOUR blog, not mine. I guess you can do whatever you want with it, right? I am just highlighting my opinions about this matter.

I woke up early today. Good old me. Sent my little sister to pre-school. Did some studying. At 9:50am, went to 1 Utama with Mama. Tried a whole bunch of winter clothing in Zara but we were looking for something more worth it to buy. I wanted to buy this cute winter jacket there, which was really cheap, I tell you. Seriously! But they didn’t have it in my size! I was so frustrated. The size I wanted was only available to color blue and green which were not really nice. I wanted a white jacket. Sigh

Went to some other stores. There was this trench coat in Warehouse that was superbly awesome. It was red in color and I seriously wanted to buy it but decided not to, looking at the price. Sheesh.

After buying some sweaters for my brothers at Universal Travelers, we went to Sunway Pyramid to buy my coat. It’s from Universal Travelers as well but it wasn’t available at 1 Utama. I don’t really know what to say about this coat. It’s nice. But I’m just scared that it’s too much. I am not the type of person that can handle such low temperature, that’s why I had to buy this huge sponge coat (haha, I call it the sponge coat) and God, I think I look fat in it. But it would come in handy when we are playing with the snow and I can use it when we go to Canada which is going to be colder.

Bought a pair of gloves, winter socks and some other stuffs. Going to borrow more coats from my auntie. Not really going to waste money on something I am not going to wear that often, right?

Then, we went home I was so hungry!! I only ate 1 slice of bread, drank chocolate milk and a quarter of banana, until 2:30pm. Hooray me.

Now, it’s 5:21pm. I am going to skip the rest of my today’s activities as I have not the mood to write any further. Bad mood, bad mood. Grrrr.

Off to cheer myself up.

xoxo, Fanah.

Perfection Doesn’t Exist

But why do we keep going after it? ( referring to the title )

Good evening everyone. It is 12:06am. Offcially, 3 more days to Psychology paper, 6 more days to CAE paper together with freedom and Zurich, here I come

Mama just bought the my ticket this morning. The others had bought their tickets a long time ago. I am super duper excited. Just talked to Ayah on Skype and he sounded quite eager to go to Mt Titlis as well That’s good news everyone! Truthfully, I am not really looking forward to shop as from my experience (though I don’t really have much of it but enough to learn one lesson), unless you are a millionaire or something, then, you would get the pleasure of shopping overseas. But to me, I don’t think going overseas is for shopping. Sure, you will find some things you want to buy, but why buy things that are also available here, right? It’s best just to buy things you could only get in that particular country OR things that are cheaper there.

Since I am not looking forward to do the shopping, what am I looking forward to?

Taking pictures of course! And just to see the sceneries there. Get a new experience. Meet new people (eheh). Buy some souvenirs. Play with snow! Buy chocolate! Etc. You get the idea. And I can hardly wait for this Tuesday. Like, such a last minute plan! I don’t even think I would get the chance to buy new clothes for the trip!

I am going to go winter-coat shopping with Mama tomorrow. Only in the morning. Not going to waste too much time on that since I have, have, have to study. Now that I have something to look forward to, I have become more motivated than ever to study

I haven’t said anything about my Math paper just now huh. Thanks to my bad mood. Ha ha. But 2 slices of bread with ice-cream later, I feel much MUCH better. So much for not eating HUH!

My Math paper was, thankfully, easier than our Mocks paper. THANK GOD. Alhamdulillah. I was able to do almost, (note: almost) all the questions but I didn’t really do all with 100% confidence. I left a few questions which carried little marks but still, dangerous.

What nearly gave me a heart attack was that, at 12:25pm, exactly 5 minutes before the paper was about to end, I flipped through the paper, thinking that I had done every page when I realized that I HAVEN’T DONE THE LAST PAGE. 3 QUESTIONS. ALL TOGETHER 8 MARKS.

I stopped breathing and my hands started shaking. They turned pale in just few seconds. I started squeezing my brain and thank God it was just an easy question. Formulas not required, just quick thinking was needed. Time’s up and I was still writing a few more examples in the speed of light, hands still shaking, heart was about to be pumped out of my ribcage.

Said my last prayer and handed the paper to one of the invigilators. End of Math. Oh my God. I was so happy that if it wasn’t for the panic attack, I would have jumped in joy Haha.

Today was full of panic-attacks. Guess what? I set my alarm at 6:15am. I remembered putting off the alarm, going back to sleep, waking up to the bright light shining through my sliding door, bolted right out of bed, making weird panic-attacks sound with sleepy eyes, taking a quick shower, a good thing I didn’t have to pray. And was on my way at exactly 7:25am. 15 minutes after I woke up. Didn’t even have the time to pack my water bottle and eat breakfast!

I hope the incident doesn’t reoccur this Tuesday (Psychology is at 2pm, CAE, on Tuesday, is at 9:20am ) but most probably, it won’t I would just be too excited. Teehee. UNLESS, there is another postpone, which would definitely crush me to pieces! But let’s just pray hard that no further postpone will happen, okay?

Well, I guess that’s all for now. I am surprised to see myself still not sleepy. I slept late last night and had to wake up early. Is it the Nescafe I drank this morning? Should not be. That was like, HOURS ago. Hmmm. Maybe I am just used to being an owl. My biological clock is ruined

Oh well. Good night everyone. I’m off to bed OR study Psychology. Which one is better? What do you think?

SLEEP, OF COURSE!

Like, D’OH!

xoxo, Fanah.

What Hurts The Most

I’m feeling very emotional tonight. Very sad. Very down. I lost my appetite since this afternoon. Eating only small portions of lunch and dinner. My stomach is growling, begging to be fed, but I am just refusing to do so. Two things you do when you are in a bad mood:

1. Eat as much as you can, even things you don’t like.
2. Don’t eat at all, or eat as less as possible.
3. Cry.

Since I just can’t seem to force tears out of my eyes, I have decided to choose option No 2. It seems way more torturing and way more “fun”. Besides, who knows I can lose weight while I’m at it.

Tonight I am going to talk about people calling me stupid. Try imagine this situation, your best friend. This is purely an example and ONLY that. So, your best friend keeps calling you stupid. Stupid. As in, stupid stupid. Definition of stupid. Let’s check it out, shall we? Just to make things crystal clear to those who are still blur.

adj. stu·pid·er, stu·pid·est

1. Slow to learn or understand; obtuse.

2. Tending to make poor decisions or careless mistakes.

3. Marked by a lack of intelligence or care; foolish or careless: a stupid mistake.

4. Dazed, stunned, or stupefied.

5. Pointless; worthless: a stupid job.

So, do you like to be called stupid? A person who is SLOW to learn and understand. I mean, what kind of a best friend is that best friend of yours if he/she can’t even PRETEND that you are not stupid? And, come on!!!!!!!! If you are THAT stupid, why can’t he/she just f*ck off and go find someone else, someone, probably a genius? And be best friend with a GENIUS instead?

Fine. I am not bright. I am slow. I don’t even know what’s going on with the politic world. I suck at Maths. I am always blur. It’s been a while since I got number 1 in my class, a tad bit too “while” actually. I don’t know important people’s names. I can’t even come out with genius-like arguments.

All I know is what? Fairytales? Shopping? Music? Stupidity?

Sure, call me what you want. I am the Queen of STUPIDITY. Happy now?

YOU, have no idea how you are destroying my confidence and self-esteem bit by bit. NO IDEA AT ALL.

I want to stop right here, right now because all I feel like doing right now is CURSE and SWEAR and throw things all over my room. And cry. That’s all.

I am emotional. SO BE IT.

xoxo (fcckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk), Fanah.

Anniversary

Hello. I hate Math.

Math is driving me crazy. Math is going to make me cry. Math is seriously, killing me. With it’s numbers and formulas and signs and whatever. Urgh. I really wish I could fast-forward the time and get this paper over with. After Math, my life would be so much easier okay?

So, it’s 10:45pm. Of course, I am so not going to sleep yet! I think I might stay up, just to further understand a few more chapters of Math-annoying-matics. Then, maybe I’ll hit the sack. Definitely (without a doubt) I will have to drink coffee to keep me awake and alert and be somewhat active.

Because I just feel like throwing up if I take one more look at my Math books right now, or even the calculator, I decided to just blog. Yeah, blog.

And also do some research on Mount Titlis (you can click on it if you want to). I am highly excited about this as Mount Titlis is just 1 hour and 30 minutes away from Zurich. And I am very excited of the idea to play with snow. LOL. I miss snow. I want to feel the real winter baby! So, I am hoping that we would be able to get one day, just to spend our time there. I mean, we can’t really do much shopping right? Because of the price. Besides, I think we should avoid doing too much shopping ( especially for things that are available in Malaysia ) because logically, we’ll only waste our money. Well, except for the things that originated from there, which would definitely be cheaper, such as Swiss made watches? Yeah. That maybe would be cheaper. I don’t know.

Moving on. I am going to write a bit of my opinion of anniversary and how people celebrate it. First of all, let me remind and highlight the definition of anniversary to you guys okay?

An anniversary (from the Latin anniversarius, from the words for year and to turn, meaning (re)turning yearly; known in English since c. 1230) is a day that commemorates and/or celebrates a past event that occurred on the same day of the year as the initial event. For example, the first event is the initial occurrence or, if planned, the inaugural of the event. One year later would be the first anniversary of that event.

Taken from Wikipedia.

ps; obviously, anniversaries don’t only apply to wedding anniversaries, okay?

So, yeah, you celebrate it every time the event turns a year older, right? The thing is, to me, no offense anyone, TO ME, I just feel like it is silly to celebrate things that are turning one MONTH older and call it, for example, Happy 2 Months Anniversary. OK, like, can somebody explain to me, according to the definition, in what way does a wish like that make any sense at all. If you really look at the definition, it doesn’t really make sense. Is it like, “2 months” is turning a year older or what?

This, of course, apply highly to the lovers out there. Couples, etc. I mean, come one, turning 1 month older ain’t actually something to be proud about. You are not even sure that you would actually get to celebrate a REAL anniversary and get a 1-year old relationship, right? Maybe, for some people, it is romantic. Yeah, I guess so. Maybe it is. For if MY boyfriend, was to suddenly celebrate a “month anniversary” with me, I certainly would not decline the offer But yeah, until that happens, I will just stick to my opinion that it is rather funny. Silly is probably a harsh word.

But come to think of it, it is kind of sweet, right? You get to celebrate your “anniversary” every month! And get presents too! Lots of it Haha. Yeah. But it would certainly be a shame if you celebrate it every month and BEFORE you could even celebrate your 1-year anniversary, you break up. It’s like, I don’t know. How do I say this?? Urgh.

The most important thing is: Aim for your REAL anniversary. Not just be too happy when you turn a month older. Anything can happen in a month. Hell, anything could even happen in 1/2/3/4 years. But 1 year is a long time. So, it’s much more worth celebrating, right?

Whatever it is, there is no crime in celebrating a “month anniversary”. Maybe because I don’t celebrate it, I just find it weird, plus the real definition of anniversary. Yeah, that’s all. People can do whatever they like right? And I am just expressing my opinion. Do share yours if you have any

Another reason for me, bringing up this matter is because my third anniversary with Mr L is coming up In another 6 days, including the day itself, which is on the 13th of November. 3 years. Teehee. Maybe not THAT long, compared to many others but still! Actually, I am not even sure what we are right now. But I asked him if he had idea on what is happening on the 13th and he answered: Our anniversary?

OH MY GOD.

He remembers our anniversary! I was so touched that I went all speechless. LOL. But I was beyond happy that day. He remembers. That’s all that matters. Har-har.

I am not supposed to be writing about him. He hates it. (I know, such a spoilsport ) ((kidding okay, about the spoilsport)) ((( just in case he reads this! )))

But I can’t help it. I am just too happy. Sorry

So, yeah, I am planning to ask him to have dinner with me on that day, after my Psychology but I don’t know if he is up for it or not. I don’t care if we don’t celebrate it. Just want to spend time with him. That’s all

And, tadaa! Yeah. That’s all for now. I better stop before I turn all romantic and mushy and yucky and all. Heh.

ps, I ♥ you

xoxo, Fanah.

What’s Wrong?

I don’t know why but today’s just the day where my eyes just simply wouldn’t open and it took me 2 freaking hours to completely get out of bed just now. It was a horror. A total horror. I hate not being able to wake up. I hate to waste my time. I hate it.

But I LOVE LOVE LOVE sleeping

Let’s skip my morning activities and go straight to the time where I studied Math. Then, at around 1:00pm, Mr L called me and asked me to have lunch with him at 2pm. I said okay because I needed his help to do my Math questions anyway. I continued with my Math, helping my mom in between. 1:38pm, got ready and went to pick him up. We were going to have lunch at McDonald Section 2.

McD: Ordered our food. Talked about Math. Silence. Eating time after around 1 hour of doing Math. Silence. Drove him back to his place. I was confused. But whatever it is, I had somewhat a happy ending, so, I guess it was okay.

Went back home. I had fun driving just now. I just don’t know why. Probably because all the good songs were on air I was singing along to all of the songs. It amazes me how I listen to those songs so frequently that I could already memorize the lyrics or at least the one or whatever. For every, single, song. Most of them. That’s to show just how addicted to the radio I am these days

Arrived at home. Not in my comfort attire yet. Still in the dress I wore to go out just now. Lazy to change. It’s 4:45pm. I will just change to my workout attire because I am working out with my mom later. We are doing the Pump It Up video Hooray! Time to lose some fat, baby!

I just realized just how unhealthy a McChicken is. It’s totally pure bread, chicken and a few slices of lettuce. That’s all. Oh, let’s not forget the mayonnaise. Yeah, and that’s it. I mean, COME ON. It is obviously so not healthy. So, I have been able to spot the difference between a healthy burger and the unhealthy one. Like, why is Wendy’s burger more expensive than McD’s? Because it is healthier (in a way). For example, it has way more veggies. You get more FRESH tomatoes, lettuce and onions. Not the spoiled one, the one that looks like it has been in the fridge for a way too long time. The beef/chicken in the burger is grilled instead of fried. And of course, the burger is bigger  in Wendy’s than in McDonalds. Burger King is also a healthier choice because of the grilled patties instead of fried. ( okay, correct me if I am wrong in this matter, I am writing this based on what I have heard and what people have told me )

Whatever it is, going to a fast food chain is not a healthy choice because when you eat there, you are more prone to order soft drinks as well. And don’t even get me started on the bad things soft drinks bring to your health! Google it yourself, okay? Then, who could ever resist the ever so delicious Frech fries? I know I can’t! No matter what, my hand will always reach for the skinny, crispy fries (because I don’t like the fat ones) and dip it in the chili sauce and NGAP, into my mouth. I know NGAP is a weird word to use for a sound, but whatever As if that’s not enough, we just have to order Apple Pie, Chocolate Sundae, ChocoTop™, etc which just make things worse by adding your calories intake, fat intake, sugar intake and so on.

I know I sound like a freak, caring so much about health. But ha-ha, I care about my health. You should too, okay? I mean,be grateful that you are given a life. No matter how your life sucks, you’re here. On earth. Can’t change anything about that. If you hate it so much, you would’ve killed yourself by now (regardless of whether you think would end up in heaven or hell), so why are you still here, my friend?

Oh well. I am going straight back to my little Math world. Not sure if I am blogging again tonight, maybe not. Discreet Math paper is tomorrow. Will start at 9:00am. Wish me luck people because let me repeat this again, I am going to need every bit of it.

xoxo, Fanah.

This Must Be A Dream

For the second time, I have good news and I have bad news. So, which one should I announce first, I just have to wonder. I think I shall start with the good news, then only will the bad news make sense

The GOOD NEWS is, I am going to Zurich with my family!!!! I know, a miracle huh? After ages of whining and ranting and complaining about not being able to go, after a series of crying drama, suddenly my dad says I CAN GO! Woohoo baby

So, now, what could possibly be the bad news, right?

1. My family’s trip to go there is postponed once again, we are going after my CAE paper, which is on the 17th of November.
2. We still have to fear that there will be another postpone on the 17th because my dad’s work is just so freaking unpredictable! (that’s why I haven’t really told anyone, even my close friends, about this, so, no offense)
3. If I am going on the 17th Nov, I will have to miss my AUSMAT Awards Night!! I am seriously upset about this because I have been looking forward to this night! I have already planned to buy a dress, etc with my friends and now, I’m not going? Grrr
4. I will have to miss 2 days of my LAN subjects class. ( good news actually. Haha )
5. And the saddest news ever, I won’t be able to carry on my plan. I am frustrated about this but is immediately cheered up because the someone said that it’s okay. Thank God

Yeah. So, what do you think? I am coming back here on the 23rd of November, but will really arrive in Malaysia on the 24th. Hmm, I think I can handle the bad news anytime just to set my two eager feet in Switzerland. Hehe.

Another good news? My dad agreed to buy me the Nikon D5000! I am ecstatic!! He said that he will buy it immediately after we get back here. Okay, seriously, I am beyond happy that I can’t even show any facial expression right now! Argh

It’s true actually. Allah will give us better reward if we just be patient and just accept all the “tests” He gives us. I was somehow able to hide my sadness from my mom eventhough I did have my “bad days”. Hehe. But yeah, things are looking good at the moment. I am glad Alhamdulillah.

So, people, lesson for today: Be patient for you will be rewarded for it

xoxo, Fanah.

You’re Too Special

Today was a busy day. I think. I had to drive so many times, I seriously got bored of it already

I woke up at 8:30am. The plan was to go to Mid Valley in the morning with my little sister. But had to do a slight change to the plan and went to Sunway Pyramid with Mr L instead. So, at around 9:30am, I took my shower, got ready and all and went to pick him up. I had to see Shauni first to take my Math paper, at her condo, before going to Sunway Pyramid.

Took his handphone. Ate at Wendy’s. Sent him back. Went back home

Borrowed some money from my brother, waited for my little sis to come back home (she went to a wedding with Mama) and off to Mid Valley, just the two of us! Had to go through heavy traffic just now. Of course, we were going to Mid Valley on a Saturday, at 1:30pm, what do you expect?

Throughout the journey, I kept wishing for a parking. And yeah, I got one! At this one green zone (green zone = parking zone which is not full) , and at the 6th floor. I think I would have been able to find a parking at 5th or 4th floor but I was too lazy and decided to just go straight up. I parked at the reserved parking place except that it’s not reserved on weekends or public holidays, just my luck The 6th floor was totally EMPTY. Seriously. There were only 2 or 3 cars. Now I know where to park if I were to go to Mid Valley during weekends and peak hours Not gonna tell where I parked though. Mwahahahaha

After making sure, my PURSE was in my handbag, handphone and everything, we went into Mid Valley and went to MPH first. Bought the birthday card for my dad which writes: YOU’RE NOT OLD UNTIL PEOPLE START GIVING YOU READING MATERIAL WITH LARGE PRINT in HUGE capital letters! Haha. Serve him right for always thinking he’s still young and hip! (I am so evil. I know )

Then, we went to Toys”R”Us because my little sister wanted to buy a freaking yo-yo. Yes. A YO-YO ( I don’t know why but I have this unspeakable hatred towards Yo-yo. Ha-ha). Not a barbie doll. Not some freaky doll, not My Little Pony, not Polly Pocket but a YO-YO. So, I bought her 2 Barbie Yo-yo-s. They’re damn cheap. RM4.95 for two. Haha

Then, we went to Guardian. Couldn’t find what I wanted to buy. Went to Watson’s. Nope. Went down and was surprised to see that Palmer’s was doing a roadshow or something and I managed to buy the cream I wanted. Yay! And it was cheap as well, sold at promotion price

Then, went to the florist at Gardens and bought 3 roses for my mother. Each rose represents the weight she has lost. Teehee. She lost 3kg in just one week. Is that amazing or what!? I am so proud of her!

Then, wanted to eat at Krispy Kreme but my little sis wanted a hot dog. Wanted to save money and NOT buy 1901 hot dogs (hahaha, kedekut punya kakak) so we went to Bread Story and bought sausage bread instead.

I wanted to buy a hair mask but I figured to wait for my next weekly allowance (which would be much higher than usual as “compensation money” for not being able to follow my family to Zurich, mwahahaha). So, hair mask, later!

Wanted to go window shopping but damn, Mid Valley was so packed with people and everyone knows it’s not good to stay out in that kind of crowd for too long. You might catch some sickness from others or whatever, so we hurried back home.

In the end, my sister’s happy with her YO-YO, I am happy that my mom is happy for getting the roses and for the cream that I managed to buy and for not spending too much money. I need to save more okay?

So, just as I reached home, Mr L called and invited me to have super late lunch with him ( it was 4:30pm ), so, I just wore a sweater over my shirt, wore the same jeans and hijab and went out to Mr Kaya and ate super late lunch with him And went back home at 5:30pm.

And now, I am officially tired but OH MY GOD, I have to study Math. Urgh. Thank God I studied quite a lot of Math last night or else I would be such a dead meat. After Math, this weight of the world would totally be lifted off my shoulders! Psychology is tough, I know but somehow, I am more stressed about Math.

By the way, I am looking for some other options for my college next year. I am looking for a college that offers Bachelor in Psychology, preferably, a college that has 2+1 program and will be able to take me to Australia (or maybe USA, mwahaha). I searched for it last night and saw that HELP University College seems like a good college to take Psychology. I don’t know. Will have to do more research about that. Oh well.

I’ll just stop here now. Conclusion: I had fun today (even though I am not supposed to have fun!) Whatever

xoxo, Fanah.

Burn It. Lose It.

Let me start this post by saying just how happy and tired and great I feel right now. Well, that’s how you feel after a nice high energy workout, people

Hmm. My day started out a tiny bit late today. But thanks to Mr L’s phone call, I managed to rise and shine immediately and the day started out with a smile. Did some Math after a few questions, I began to give up and wanted to take a break. I tried to think about my plans for the day and I decided to go to Mid Valley with my little sister. After picking her up from school, I asked her to get ready and 30 minutes later, we were on our way to Mid Valley with my little sister eating lunch in the car

So, there was a minor traffic jam outside of Mid Valley, going into the parking. And I thought, we are going to go through one hell of a search for a parking! But then, when I entered, I accidentally took the wrong turn and was brought to TWO empty parkings!!! Can you imagine just how happy I was!? Less than 5 minutes!

After I have parked my car, I began my routine of putting the parking ticket into my purse. I took my handbag, and unzip it and and and I saw:

• Camera
• MPH Voucher
• Handphone
• Vaseline

And my heart stopped. WHERE IS MY PURSE? WHERE ON EARTH IS MY PURSE?!

I gasped. I searched underneath the driver’s seat. I searched on the passenger’s seat, I searched in places that just seemed ridiculous, I went numb and called my mom and asked if my purse was somewhere downstairs because I remembered holding it downstairs while counting my money. And my mom said YES, it’s on the table downstairs and I started crying. Ha-ha-ha. Yes, CRYING. I mean, I went all the way from Shah Alam to Mid Valley. That’s way too far, man. Like, I went through all the tolls, all the jam and I got really lucky because I was able to find a parking immediately and NOW, I can’t even afford to pay the parking!!

So, while crying, I hurried out because we still had our free 15 minutes, so I didn’t have to pay anything. Thank God for that but yeah, I cried for a while. I had planned to buy so many things. A birthday card for my dad, some roses for my mom (because I like giving her flowers), some stuff at the pharmacy, some books for my little sister at MPH. I was so frustrated. It was pure waste of petrol, waste of money having to pay the toll, waste of time

I went back, ate lunch but only a little of it, was not in the mood to eat and just did Math without any feelings at all. Then, at around 3:00pm, my little brother asked me for a favor to take him to SACC Mall. I wanted to go to the pharmacy, so I said okay. I went there and bought my medicated shampoo at Guardian because my scalp is itchy all of the sudden I tried to find the other stuffs on my to-buy list, but they were not sold at SACC Guardian.

Went to Video Ezy because I wanted to find a new workout DVD. And I found this:

Pump It Up by M.O.S

I already have 2 of the other Pump It Up DVDs and they are super cool. So, I bought this one. And yes, yes, yes, it’s super duper cool and I like it and the music’s so great. When the menu came out just now on the TV, the music blasting through my speakers was, WHOA. I felt as if I was in a club. LOL. Not that I have been to one but, hello, everyone knows how the musics in clubs are. Yeah, so it was just amazing Love it but the moves ARE a bit tricky but I think I will get used to it

And while I am waiting for myself to cool down, dry all the sweat (haha), I am writing this, of course. To simply pass the time. Now, I am ready to take my shower. Perhaps have dinner first.

I have decided to change my lifestyle, bit by bit. By being more healthy. Cut down my fat and sugar intake. Run more. Do more workouts. Stay fit and healthy people, you only have one body, so don’t ruin it okay?

This message is brought to you by Farhanah

Oh well, I am off to get ready for tonight. What’s up for tonight? Math, of course! Life just can’t get any better, right?

xoxo, Fanah.